It's one of those days.

When my flesh takes more of a front seat position than the new person I am in Christ. When this happens I always feel guilt and frustration. As a long time Christian I do understand and believe the words of God spoken through Paul in Romans.

There is therefore now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus. Romans 8:1

I am not as concerned for my salvation, although I must always be running self checks and staying close enough to my brothers and sisters in Christ so that any divergence from "occasional sin" into "habitual sin" should be noticed and examined. I am concerned, however, for my relationship with my Lord. There is damage inflicted upon the fellowship that I have with God. The relationship I have now, here in my space-time continuum, is hurt by my actions and attitudes. My salvation is secure and God really does see me as I will be, not as I am, when it comes to justice and Holiness. But I am a creature of this world and as such, I am subject to it's laws and consequences.

"Oh father, Lord of heaven and earth. I have treated you as less than ultimate. I have put other things before you, things that satisfy my temporary flesh. To treat you as anything other than supreme is an offense punishable by eternal death. You are God, you are the only God and you are worth so much more than anything created. I am sorry Father for putting anything before you and choosing to feed my flesh rather than spend my time worshiping you with my actions and loving you with ALL my heart, my mind and my soul. I have chosen dark places hidden from the light, which is unbecoming a new creature who is made for the light. I know this and I want to truly repent and 'Go and sin no more' as you commanded the woman caught in sin. Go and sin no more, go and love and worship my savior, my redeemer, my closest and dearest friend. I am sorry and I can only ask now for true repentance so that I am no in the habit of breaking our fellowship. I love you Lord, please forgive me and renew our relationship."