Turning 35

As I turn 35, I am thankful for so many things.

For my relationship with Jesus.
For my wife and a marriage of almost 12 years.
For my 4 children.
For my life and health being manageable.
For my church.
For grace.
For friends.
For family.
For ministry.
For hopes.
For dreams.
For comfort.
For the opportunity to go to University.
For a new career in the making.
For an understanding I do not deserve.
For working out.
For 35 years of life.

Learning about Faith

As you might imagine, 8 months of unemployment can effect a person's faith. Recently I have had three very successful interviews with a company I really want to work for. Not only is the company a solid company, the position is a great fit for me. It's also located in the same town I live in, so no 2 hour commute there and 2-3 hour commute back. I really want this job. After the phone screen I was invited to come in for the interview, which I did well on. Then silence. After about a week they called me in for a third and final round, to find the best out of three candidates. After that, which went well in my experience, silence again. Then our awesome Pastor at Cornerstone Fellowship, Steve Madsen, delivered a wonderful message that gave me hope. To sum it up here would not do it justice at all. Head over and take a listen, it's beyond worth the time it takes to listen. I took the content of the sermon and put it into practice. (Jul 17th, 2011 - Ruth 2:1-3 - Available as an Mp3, Podcast, or Video)

So a week of putting this into practice with no results sent me into a huge depression and a struggle for my faith. On the other side of it, I believe my faith is stronger and nothing changed in my circumstances. At first I was really mad at myself for the struggle, but then during my reading of a Romans commentary for a Romans class at William Jessup University, which took so much effort just to want to do the homework, I found some things that helped me understand the struggle in a new light.

I wanted to share several of those things in quote form that I believe really cemented a new way of thinking deep into my mind.

Faith is not an inoculation against the germs of life. Faith is a fierce struggle. The hardest thing in life is to believe God above all circumstances. -James R. Edwards (NIV commentary on Romans)

The God who raises from the dead cannot be tamed or controlled. He can be received only by faith, and by faith God transforms frozen impossibilities into springs of home and resurrection. -James R. Edwards (NIV commentary on Romans) - Speaking about Abraham who had a promise of being the father of many nations but who 1. was too old to bear children, and 2 was told to sacrifice his only son.

Faith in the God of the impossible, gives birth to hope, and hope in the words of Hebrews 6:19, is "an anchor for the soul". -James R. Edwards (NIV commentary on Romans)

Abraham's faith was not a safe faith: "If the the Bible says it, I believe it, and that settles it!" Rather, his faith was best with opposition. The passage of time sucked the winds of hope from his sail;s, and more than once he was driven to the brink of despair. -James R. Edwards (NIV commentary on Romans)

There is nothing more injurious to our faith than to fasten our minds to our eyes. -John Calvin as quoted by James R. Edwards (NIV commentary on Romans)

True faith is strengthening faith, which exists in tension with doubt and disbelief. -James R. Edwards (NIV commentary on Romans)

Jesus too knew the struggle of faith. Faith does not exist in a vacuum. We may worship God in a sanctuary, but we do not normally find our faith in one. Faith is more often born in a boxing ring of choices - of doubt, disbelief, impossibility and meaninglessness. To adhere to the promise of God in spite of everything to the contrary is to give glory to God. -James R. Edwards (NIV commentary on Romans)

So there you go. These words really helped me to gain perspective. God does have promises for every believer and He is faithful to fulfill them. Even when everything else says he will not.

busy busy busy

It's been so busy this week, and I am so happy to report that I am starting to lose some pounds! I owe it all to this article that helped me tweak my workout a lot so that I am actually doing some good for both my heart and my weight. A friend also suggested this link to get a better idea of where I am at. Though a bit depressing, I finally have a really good baseline and will be able to tell when I am losing fat and gaining muscle.

So this week we are on #13 in our Family Devotions book "Training Hearts Teaching Minds: Family Devotions Based on the Shorter Catechism" and the kids are asking some really good questions. I love teaching from this book, it makes things easy and the discussions just flow from the reading of the text.

In addition to working on my final for the Psych class I am also working on the www.schedmd.com website for my side business http://www.eckertdevelopment.com - but I am not loving it. My client is a programmer and he went in a tweaked my code so that it now uses Ajax and other such Javascript nonsense. I am not a happy camper, in the midst of working on a final and starting a Revelations class and a Romans class .... my brain is starting to rebel against me.

I had a really good interview this week for a company that is right here in the town I live, which of course means no commute to Silicon Valley or San Francisco. The interview must have gone well because right there on the phone they asked me to come in for a face-to-face interview this coming Monday. It would be awesome to score a job with this company.

I have this nagging feeling that won't rest until I catch www.te365.me back up. So I need to make some time and do that.

We had two BBQ's this week, well we did not have them, we went to them. Both were fantastic and it's pretty neat to be plugged into Cornerstone this way. Tonight is the Revelations class! We are both excited about it and have done like70% of the pre-class homework. Just the homework has already given me more info than I have ever had in 25 years on the book of Revelations. I cannot wait until class tonight.

Alright, the kids are jumping on the bed, I need to do cardio, and my wife is calling me from the doctors office where she took two very sick kids. Better go.

Happy 4th

Today has been a busy day. It started with getting up at 11:00, so ya I slept in. But I did go straight to work doing laundry, dishes, and cleaning. I even got a workout in! A really good workout ... a good solid burn! In a few minutes we leave for a 4th of July BBQ. A couple in our "married's" group is hosting about 35 of us. Should be fun, it's more social than we usually try to be with 4 kids but they are all finally old enough to take out to things like a BBQ without too much drama. So .... awesome!

This week is going to be so busy. I have a final for a Psych class, plus I have to read a bunch of Romans and do some homework before the class starts in 2 weeks and I start a Revelations class at Cornerstone this week. In addition to this we are going to the fair one day, having dinner with some friends, and a bunch of other stuff. It's going to be rough, and on top of all that I spend a good 2-3 hours every day looking for jobs, writing meaningful cover letters and tweaking my resume to fit each position. That equals about 10 submissions a day, which is very exhausting and after 6 months of doing this, my motivation is low and the fear of rejection is high.

Okay, gotta go. Happy 4th of July.

Stuck!!!

I am so frustrated right now. Ugh!

5 days in a row of intense cardiovascular workouts and no weight loss. 5 days on the stationary bike for 30-50 minutes of varied training. I ate less and healthier, but not change. None. ARGH!

According to my GoWear Fit arm band, the exercise is good and sleep is decent. So I am going to try a few things. I need to look at food and the workouts in more detail. The exercise is good for my heart so I am not going to stop but I would like to lose weight as well.

Looking at the food, I know I can do better and I also know a few things about myself. My parents are diabetic, so is my sister. So I am prone to diabetes. My stomach hurts when I have sugary foods or drink, especially any fruit juice or soda. I am going to try the impossible, I am going to eliminate sugar. I found this book that I ordered and will read called "Dr. Gotts no flour no sugar diet" I did a lot of research online for how to eliminate sugar and it's not going to be easy at all, and maintaining it as a lifestyle change is going to be even more difficult. But I am motivated to stay away from diabetes and I want to feel better.

Workouts need some tweaking too. It's time to include weight lifting. I also want to start jogging again. So lots to change and tweak this week.